Monday was my first day back to hell on earth. I went out about 8 weeks ago on stress leave; my blood pressure was 166/110, I was suffering from major depression and stress, and my doctor said I needed to get out of my job and get away from how bad everything is.

I went to therapists to help me cope, and was introduced to anti-anxiety meds and Prozac.

Sadly, it hasn't helped.

I went back on Monday and have been listening to other reps take calls, and I'm hearing the same level of stress from these people that I myself had before I went out.

I keep looking for a job, but it's rough. I've had contract headhunters call me and offer me jobs, but they want to pay me $11/hr for a job that would pay $60,000/yr anywhere else. And then the headhunters act like it's a privilege to work for this company and that low of a wage.

At least I'm still doing my podcast and enjoying it, even if nobody's listening - small pleasures, right folks?

Maybe it's time to start looking at Gawker to serif there's any positions available. :)